felt like crying

i felt like crying

but i don't really want to

it just makes me feel so

WEAK

Damn this feeling!

how many times have i done these?

I mean its not new..

its not fucking new!

but i felt like crying and sobbing

every time i thought of that

i just cant

i just cant help it..

these emotions keep on pestering me

keep on pushing me

keep on making me feel like this

make me feel so vulnerable

and Weak

and I HATE IT!

I know its easy to cry like that

its easy to make your tears flow

but the hardest thing is

you keep on tearing

with the same and same reasons at all

I know this is so lame to share

but i really do feel so plain now

Plain? no...maybe numb

feel so numb

i felt like crying but i dont want to

or i just cant now..

i dont know of the two..

or im just ignoring evrything

and feel like i was tough?

hmmm...

crying?

i still felt like it

right now..

but...

i just dont know...