im starting to like this guy

I love this pic so much this is why i got a crush on him hahaha

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im starting to like this guy hahaha
few years back i first saw him on the cheaper by the dozen 2

and i quite didnt like him.

maybe because he has this angst in his personality i think

and i love alyson stoner and seeing him in the movie (evethough its just acting)

i dont like him for her hahaha

anyways ive seen some of his movies before and still im not that impressed

about him and everything

then came last year or last last year im not sure my bestfriends

dragged me in to watch the movie Twilight i was not really intersted really (until now, quite)

and me my friend burst into saying "Lautner?!" i said " SharkBoy?!" elaisha said then her sister just go with "huh?" to us. We both smiled and we just continue to watch.

on going the film...i commented "hmmm..he's adult now huh...he's tall!" then quiet again and after that i mean the film i think almost all of my friends were crazy about twilight edward-Bella-Jacob fans. whew i still didnt like the idea of taylor lautner as a man hahaha but i find him cute as Jacob it just suits him right anyways..after years new moon is coming and i found few pics of him again.

But there are changes i think i was a late bloomer i think hahaha right now i find taylor lautner sooo...sexy and attractive hahaha. Oh well tables turned quite a while now hahaha. I doint know it just clicked! And i love now the idea of Him being teamed up with Alyson stoner! What the! Okay okay im liking this guy now.. I think im gonna watch the movie because of him (still not a fan of twilight sorry) maybe yes maybe not im not really sure but i have one thing for sure. Taylor lautner just caught my attention now hahaha

weeee! wink wink

felt like crying

i felt like crying

but i don't really want to

it just makes me feel so

WEAK

Damn this feeling!

how many times have i done these?

I mean its not new..

its not fucking new!

but i felt like crying and sobbing

every time i thought of that

i just cant

i just cant help it..

these emotions keep on pestering me

keep on pushing me

keep on making me feel like this

make me feel so vulnerable

and Weak

and I HATE IT!

I know its easy to cry like that

its easy to make your tears flow

but the hardest thing is

you keep on tearing

with the same and same reasons at all

I know this is so lame to share

but i really do feel so plain now

Plain? no...maybe numb

feel so numb

i felt like crying but i dont want to

or i just cant now..

i dont know of the two..

or im just ignoring evrything

and feel like i was tough?

hmmm...

crying?

i still felt like it

right now..

but...

i just dont know...

i Can do what you can do

I hate it when people tend to criticize me as nothing
maybe i am but not that rough please ...
i can do other things too. I know im not that super skilled
but i am also not that flank!
WTF! damn those people thought me as really nothing
because i am useful in some ways.
And Please!! i can do other simple things that you think i can't do it
Damn! i can do it maybe not really talented with it but i can do it!
Don't give me that shit that "you-dont-know-what-you-doing" face to me
because i can do it maybe in other way or whatever
But I can!
I REALLY CAN!